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Lauren
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United States
Hi I'm Lauren! You can call me Lauren, Laurel, or even Lighty if you've been around for a while and that's what you're used to!

I'm 21 and I'm attending university and double majoring in fine art (pottery concentration) and forestry (forest management). I hope to get into the urban forestry profession and do art on the side for extra income.

Likes:
TEA, teapots, trees, flowers, mountains, oceans, ceramics/pottery (WOO DISHES!), cats, dogs, horses, rabbits, animals in general, snow, sunshine

Dislikes:
crowds

Please feel free to talk to me! I love making dA friends c:
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I never really understood what people meant when they said they were in emotional "pain" until a few weeks ago.

I lost my friend Jake to suicide in mid-November, almost a month ago. And it hurts so fucking bad. 

I know there's nothing I could have done, I don't blame myself... I am finding out things I never knew about how much he suffered.

But that doesn't mean I don't have regrets. 
We never got any pictures together. 
I shouldn't have pushed him away for that period last year, when I didn't know how to be a friend to someone so troubled.
I thought about asking him to hang out a couple weeks before it happened, but I didn't. 
I should have texted him more often. 
I should have known something was up when he hadn't invited me to hang out for three weeks. I was too damn busy to notice. 
He was distancing himself from me, from everyone. 

It just kills me to think about how I'll never see him again. Fucking kills me. 

So I go through scenarios in my head over and over... He appears in the parking lot, or in the student center among the crowd. We spot each other, and I race to him, embrace him, sobbing, saying "I thought I'd never see you again."

Jake was one of the most intelligent people I knew, and he felt and loved so deeply. 


What has comforted you when you've lost someone? I'm just at a loss as to what to do, what to think. Is he at peace? Can his spirit see me? Does he know I love him?

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TheSilverBells Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your page/profile image! (:

Forestry stuff sounds interesting. I've been debating whether or not to get a degree in something involving plants/animals myself. 
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leafylaurel Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Student General Artist
Thank you! :hug:

It is super interesting!! I LOVE being a forestry major. I realized the other day that art is a female-dominated major and forestry is a male-dominated major, so I get to experience both! Haha. 
Anyway yeah I've discovered a huge love for trees in the past year or two. Plants are freaking amazing. I highly recommend studying them! :D
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Nemmikins Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2016
Happy birthday~! ;v;
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leafylaurel Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2016  Student General Artist
Thank you! :D
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raviolifox Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday 
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leafylaurel Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2016  Student General Artist
Thank you!
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reddoom11 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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leafylaurel Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2016  Student General Artist
Ahh thank you but my birthday is not till the 12th! :giggle:
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reddoom11 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your welcome
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Vaynese Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :tighthug:
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